The Way Things Are

As I sit-lazily slumped over my little laptop, I can't help but wonder why people do what they do, or what some people are thinking when they make choices. Some people are just stupid. Some people love to play games with my mind and heart and I've learned to build walls that keep everyone out, in order to avoid being crushed again. That is a pretty veague and slightly confusing statement, I realize, but there musn't be any specificity used in such a comment, becuase I do respect my peers privacy.
I can't wait to move to California, I really am counting the days, even the hours...sometimes the minutes. But after I've stopped all the counting I look around and realize how blessed I am to have such wonderful people in my life.
I have never felt more at home then I do here in my apartment- with the most wonderful roomates a girl could ever ask for. They are all unique, beautiful, kind, intellegent people that I have nothing but admiration and love for. Jeannie is precious. She is probobly the most kind hearted woman I have ever met. She gets along with everyone. She's helped me through some really tough times this year, without hesitation I might add. She's an angel.
Chelsey is beautiful. She is absolutly without a doubt the most patient person I have ever met. She reminds me so much of my Mom. (which is a great thing) They have such an amazing ability to love and help the people around them feel comfortable. She never puts herself first- someone is always recieving the benefits of her selflessness and she is my sister in christ. We share our faith which I believe God has done on purpose to show us that altough serendipitous circumstances may arise-that he has a hand in every aspect of our lives.
Amy. Oh Amy. She is the glue that holds us all together. She is amazing. I have never in my life met someone with a more honest and open approach to living life. Her eyes smile all the time, as if to say that inside she holds the secret of living a happy life. She is quick to befriend and slow to anger. She makes me feel so accepted and loved. I've never hugged someone so many time in my life. She makes me want to be a better person and I know she is always there for me. There is nothing one could do or say that would make her abandon a friend. She embodies everything that is good about people.
I love all of these girls and have never known people to accept me for who I am, in my entire life. It's an amazing feeling, and I thank God for them everyday.